last nyt.... was one of the worse nights of my lyf..... i took 2 hrs of told and untold truths by my bst frn 'innocent'.
it was a heart breaker to know dat she wishes dat she hadnot met me. it was a heart breaker to know that she doesnt trust me, (though i knew it but over a long tym i had been tryin to convince myself that she does) . i feel as if i had been faked all this tym with an untrusable trust. its been a year and a half since we started talking again and i am made to hear dis many times dat i had stoppd talkin to her wen i was in a relation.
i know it was my fault and i had tried so hard to make up for my mistake.
she says she doesnt trust me then why does she tell everythng of her life.. what should i think i dun know or what i am made to think i dun know..
she says i made her a pessimist.. well if i made her a pessimist then where are all the good things i did....
and last nyt each word i heard was a slap on my face and listening to all what she went through those 8 months (though i knew dat already) and summing up all that in a nyt, all that anger she had which she had taken out on me many times, i feel so bad that i just cant put that in words.
her anger was a slap, her silence was a slap, actually last nyt whole was a giant slap that contained thousands of slaps....
how can she just preassume that she doesnt MATTER to me, i have no idea.
it was disheartening to hear that she thinks all negative about me.
and i think i should nt tell her dat i felt bad last nyt..
i will keep trying untill i change the views she has in her mind regarding me.
and i will keep smiling.
it was a heart breaker to know dat she wishes dat she hadnot met me. it was a heart breaker to know that she doesnt trust me, (though i knew it but over a long tym i had been tryin to convince myself that she does) . i feel as if i had been faked all this tym with an untrusable trust. its been a year and a half since we started talking again and i am made to hear dis many times dat i had stoppd talkin to her wen i was in a relation.
i know it was my fault and i had tried so hard to make up for my mistake.
she says she doesnt trust me then why does she tell everythng of her life.. what should i think i dun know or what i am made to think i dun know..
she says i made her a pessimist.. well if i made her a pessimist then where are all the good things i did....
and last nyt each word i heard was a slap on my face and listening to all what she went through those 8 months (though i knew dat already) and summing up all that in a nyt, all that anger she had which she had taken out on me many times, i feel so bad that i just cant put that in words.
her anger was a slap, her silence was a slap, actually last nyt whole was a giant slap that contained thousands of slaps....
how can she just preassume that she doesnt MATTER to me, i have no idea.
it was disheartening to hear that she thinks all negative about me.
and i think i should nt tell her dat i felt bad last nyt..
i will keep trying untill i change the views she has in her mind regarding me.
and i will keep smiling.
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